nothing really matters anymore.

Missing you kills me everyday, I wish I could go back, way back, to when I woke up with a reason to smile, because I still had you. now i dont have a reason to wake up.

now i just rollover and go back to sleep cuz i dnt wanna feel the pain

and now i know that your officially gone it hurts even more. just when u think everythings good it gets worse. still cant cry. maybe when reality actually sets in i will.

off for a morning run.

yours truely- meez

Thanks, but no thanks. I'm as good as good gets.

yumm gidee ahhhh. i cant take it no more.

i just need you .

its not a GAME no more its a sport, if you aint got the heart to play then stay off the court.

& this is how i feel. its all about the game

yours truely,
meez.

o my gaaaaash.... your gone. gone.gone.

lovesick.

as im sitting here i think of what we could be

or could have been. it i didnt wanna tlk about

it but im gonna have to cuz tomorrow morning

when i wake up and begin to txt you "good morning"

i relize that its over and done. and it sucks.

cause no one likes a break and i'm not gonna fake it.

cuz i cant and im not gonna lie and say im not hurt and act like everythings

ok cuz its not. because deep down i know i would do anything to get you back.

knowing that you hurt me more than i hurt you and i put up more than u did.

its gonna be hard to replace you. because when it boils down to facts

we had good times and i loved you. im here for you and i hope that

we can remain good friends. i just hate that we spent time building something that the smallest, stupidest and littlest thing could tear town.

and it just shows it wasn’t a strong structure.

im not gonna cry, at least not right now but maybe later.

yours truley,
meez.

do you wanna be with me?

done.

the end.

only the strong survive.

and you can leave at the drop of a dime

"swallowed my fears, stood by your side
i shoulda left your ass a thousand times

well im not gon cry,im not gon cry,

im not gon shed no tears"

this is what i tell myself when you hurt me

and make me feel like im not good enough.

good night and good luck.

-meez.

good music.

sunset.

daily faces of meez.

yep thats me, daily.

finding a college to goto is stressfull,
i have my top four

academy of art

umkc*

columbia college

kcai.*

im super scared to go live my life in cali.

the state is goin bankrupt. huuaaahh. wtf?

and if i move to kansa city im scared i wont like it

and ill be regretting going there and especially if he and i break up.

and columbia college in chicago idk wut ill do w/ myslef there..

huuh. idk. smh.

sweet tooth.

this shit right here nigga, this shit right here. is the shit. on a real level. man, i had to stop what i was doin to go get me some. it gets serious. idk if its just me or other ppl too. but one you get one box you cant stop .. like pringles. smh.

have a good mardi gras.
stay outta trouble and dont do drugs.kids.
peace.

hello, are you there?/ long distance.

hello.hello?are you there?

can you hear me?

him:yeh whats up?

nothing just sitting here waiting and painting.

whats up with you?

him:nothing gellin like a melon

huuh. i hate when you say that cuz MELONS dont gel.

him:yeh they do.

whatever.

him: but umm baby lemme call you later.

lately i've been in this love war w/ davarius.

and it sucks i kid you not.its like im never happy

and when i am its wrong timing.

and its like all i wanna do is love him and be in love

with him and for him to do the same.

we havent talked in one whole day. an i know its cause of

me and its because when im mad i try to stay far away from

people so that i dnt say shit that i'll regret.

he said that i was trippin and he asked me why and

when i told him why he ignored me so i ended the conversation.

its so hard to have a long distance relationship or atleast when they're 212.06 miles away and when someones not putting in

their efforts. and its like man dont give up im trying and giving my all can you just PLEASE

give your all and thats all i ask.

finally.

shalom.
i've officially decided to let people into my mind.its one of the hardest things to
do but i've grown and decided i CAN do it.i dont really like people to think like me so its a big step that im ready to overcome it. i've been wanting to blog for a while but i haven't had time to. it will never be the right time but i wanna remember things and right now life is happening. & i probably wont do this every day but ill try . i wanna remeber everyhting thats happening.and eventually i wanna come back years from now and be like wtfxckkkk was i thinking or thats whats up cuh' , haha. so yep thats me,and this is your meez over dose.

WARNING: this blog may only make sense to me, and whoever else is reading it may be frustrated and confused more than a bit, or the phrases and things i say might not make sense to you but complete sense to me. you'll probably say that i'm dumb or that i dont make sense and some will be like,' i concuuuur i know eactly what she means.'so yeh this blog will be totally be random and everything will be off limits. this blog is for me,me,and o me if you happen to stop by then great :]