successful

thats all i wanna be.
the money the cars the clothes the hoes

you are my sunshine my only sunshine you make me happy...

happy•adjective• delighted,joy,good feeling.
i haven't felt this way in a while its like everyday I'm fighting a war jst to love him more .
every week i find myself crying and dwn. and having sex w/ him jst makes me fall in love w/ him
even more. i remember when he was a junior and I was a sophmore and we use to tlk all night
and fall asleep on the phone. what happen to those days when you use to care abt my thoughts &
feelings. you tell me you love me but love doesnt hurt; i promise you it doesnt . i feel tht im making
a mistake when i move to KC and if i am, CALI here i am. ive never felt so naive in a relationship tht
im barely in. im trying my hardest cuz i love you ive cut off everyone jst to be w/ you.im doing so much
and im not getting shit in return and it hurts . i haven't smiled in a long time and i dnt think i know how.
maybe ill figure out soon one day.


you are my sunshine my only sunshine you make me happy when skys are gray you'll never know
how, how much i love you so dnt take my sunshine away.....

i need a fast car.

too many feelings involved.

yeh thts it. thts all.

prom 09. & first kiss .

change is inevitable

ive deleted 20 people out of my contacts within 2 days.
im changing and their changing and i no longer need them in my life.
i now i've changed and ,hello change. i like the new me.
lately i've been more happier and i dnt know why.
but all is well.

him & i :

via txt: you need to figure out if you really wana be w/ me.
me:i do i jst need time to better myself and make things righ
so tht i wont hurt you because i love you.
him: bullshit. good excuse.
me: i loveyou

1 week later:
via txt: i need some time to better myself as a person so tht i
wont hurt u or make any mistakes that ive made in the past with my exs.
your the girl i see my self with a millie from now. your my everything.
i wana marrie you. i love you so much mykcah.
you understand? mykcah i love you.
me: wtfuuuxk. i jst said ths last week and look wut i get back in return?
huuh.

m and me are chill. i wnt more tho.
we've been tlkin for 1 month and shits not goin nowhere.
except to prom. i like him to much to sleep with him

& him i love him to much to actually cheat on him.
idk.

i broke my finger
=/
wtf

well im out.

yours truely.
meez

are you still down?

i know its been awhile.
between work and school. i have no play except for saturdays.
and not even then. im on my grustle. forreal. some have said ive changed.
nah' i havent amd if i have hello change. some say the attitude is real rude.
nah' it aint i just dnt give a fuck.